As I say I am a ‘wannabe writer’, I have written fiction on and off for years… but nothing ever published.
I am far to scared to do that… well that was until recently. I sent my first piece of and yesterday I got the email back to say that it had been rejected.
Was I upset… well not really, disappointed a little… but it has made me realise something about myself – the ‘old me’ would have said ‘that’s it’. given up and never put pen to paper again. That fear has been so strong – isn’t it in all of us? But this last year or so has taught me I am stronger than I ever thought possible, that I don’t give up or give in..and that I can and will carry on in my every day life.. or writing fiction.
Writing like may other things in life is a craft, that need to be worked on, honed, and indeed challenged. A little like ourselves, . We need to keep working on ourselves, challenging ourselves, our behaviour our thoughts etc. and more importantly not giving up. I could get really philosophical here, but that is for another post…
So back to the writing business. I am going to post some of my short stories here , on my very own blog… *laughs* – well it is a way of getting ‘published’. But the real reason is to put it out there…let it go, set it free and all that. Some people may like it, some may not. Some readers may get it, some may not. But I won’t know unless I try.
And you know what writing gives me Joy, it gives me Space, it gives me Peace… and it gives me Pleasure. And its Life, it’s part of that wonderful weave and weft… the Wyrd… mine may be full of knots and uneven, the colours may change, clash, run in to each other and at time break. But I will just knot on and carry on… with whatever is at hand, with whatever this wonderful thing called life gives me…[gosh so many poor metaphors!] But its mine, all mine…. mhwhahahahhahaha
*coughs*.. well so what this all means is that as part of my life and my blogging I am going to post some of my fiction..